dont mess up your life like me

[vaa]

dont mess up your life like me

dont take dip for 5 years and keep getting

stronger stuff from shadey dealers

dont in your despair feel like hitting

yourself 150 times in your third eye

my real mom says its related to your larynx

your breathing aparatus

but on bad days now i

cant even appreciate beauty

then whats the point?

i usually wake up at 8

then get tired 2 hours later

and dont achieve much

achieving for me

is making music

thats the ultimate

and doing lyrics for them

and good album art

anyway, i got fresh water

after so long without it

i used to love that

and also drank a whole

litre of orange juice

felt like puking but now didnt

the smell in my

lungs is of ice water

its a special sensation

like licking icicles

but i have no thoughts whatsoever

no links in my brain

no neural connections

i broke that

dont break yourself like me

be a good person

but most of all

to yourself

dont try to be 5 miles high

dont try to be too happy

theres natural ways of being happy

of making someone happy

in an appreciative way

appreciating their beauty

their light

the look of their wings

their aura

their halo

their superpowers

make them grow as a person

with drugs you turn less

at least over time

there is a world without it

where you just live day to day

appreciate the little things

instead of hearing seeing sensing

a million things

you just live in 1 reality

ive done that for most of my life

i dont have a 100 billion neurons

i have 2 really

1 input 1 output

if im in nature its just 1 neuron really

if in inside its usually a window open

with fresh air no matter the temperature outside

and some nice music usually liquid drum and

bass later years and earlier ones too

anyway, seems i have "emotions" now

which means i get horny eventhough i cant cum

and i do cry genuinely so that im thankful for

for whatever breaks something comes anew

its so simple and ive never known anyone deeply

who shares that view so few azns and hindus

in sweden and online where i frequent